Going Through The Emotions…

Hello everyone!

It appears to be the longest time since I have sat down and have written a blog post and that makes me so sad but in all honesty, I have just been so busy with life and as the title says going through all the emotions. If you read my blog quite regularly you will notice over the past couple of months I have been quite absent and haven’t been posting as frequently as what I usually do.  Truthfully, I just haven’t written much on here because I am definitely one of those people who won’t rush content and just put something up because I need to. No. I will only ever upload something if I feel 100% happy and proud of what I have done and these past couple of months I have been going through a really hard time and I just haven’t felt inspired to write or felt the need. I just wanted to keep things to myself and not put up content that I wasn’t proud of or happy with.

I know this may not appear to be the case because I have been on holiday so much these past couple of months and if you follow me on my Twitter or Instagram all you will have been seeing is my holiday photos and a rather happy me. However, that doesn’t mean I don’t have things going on behind closed doors. I post the things I do on my Instagram and Twitter because it makes me feel happy and it makes me feel better. Also, just because I only share the happy and positive moments in my life, doesn’t make me fake it just means I want to keep some privacy against some of the personal things that are going on in my life. Therefore, I don’t want to be positing about them and thus I won’t be going into detail about them on here. I just wanted to make this post as sort of an update post.

I know everyone goes through tough times and everyone is fighting their own battles that none of us are aware of so I know it is so important to always just be kind and respectful to everyone. You never know what they are going through. Life isn’t easy and even though I have taken a break from blogging I know it was the right decision and has definitely help keep some space and clear my mind and thoughts. It has been so important for me to have just switched off from everything and distance myself from everyone so I could figure out for myself what I really wanted without getting influenced by others.

Having hit the lowest point of the last couple of the months the other day, I have finally decided that it is time to move on from all this and help myself and get myself back to where I was. It isn’t always easy when you feel like the world is against you and if any of you have bad luck, like I do, when something goes wrong for me, everything goes wrong all at the same time! I know that everything happens for a reason and what will be will be.  Life challenges you to make you stronger and to give your experience and lessons which will ultimately be very important. I know that even in these difficult times I am very lucky and everything will work out okay in the end, it just takes time. Meanwhile I just need to look after myself and put myself first and love who I am and focus on doing what makes me happy and what I love. Therefore, I hope you return to blogging as usual and to just be filling my life with lots of love and laughter and to make those dark days just a little brighter.

For any of you who have been feeling like me and have been going through some difficult times I just want you to know you are not alone, everything happens for a reason and everything will be okay in the end. You just to have to believe and give the situation time and be patient with yourself and also give yourself time to recover and become stronger.

So, on a happier note, I have decided to just take control of everything and try and move forward the best I can.  It won’t be easy and it will take time but I do want to return to blogging so I hope you can just be patient with me a little longer while I get back into this and I can’t wait to be making content again. I have missed talking and chatting with you all. Also, if you have any suggestions for posts you would like to see then please them below in the comments because I am always looking for new and interesting ideas.

Much love as always,

Lizzie X

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Life Update.. Where have I been???

Hello everyone!!

It has seriously been the longest time since I have sat down and blogged. I have just been so incredibly busy this past month and unfortunately, I haven’t got around to writing a post. I have missed uploading so much and missed just being able to chat with everyone and share what has been happening. It has felt so strange since I have started documenting you most of my life, experiences and important memories here! So, where have I been?

First, I had my University exams. The final week before my exams I just wanted to take a break from my blog and social media and full focus on my revision and exams. I just wanted to concentrate on my exams. I even booked time off work to do my exams. After my exams finished it has been so full on, which is funny really because I was now finished with my first year of Uni and didn’t have to revise. However, I was working a tonne over the next few days after finishing my exams and then my life got taken over my moving.  I had finished first year now and I needed to move out of my accommodation and go back home and it was so stressful and I had so much to pack up, especially since I was self-catered the first year. I actually didn’t realise just how much I had taken with me and how much I needed to pack up and move. Sorting out my entire room, cleaning it, taking down all my posters and photos and moving everything really did take up so much time! Also, after my exams and then working a lot of hours at work and then packing up I just felt like I wanted to take a step back and relax and actually have some time to myself so I did.

So, I moved on from Uni on the Wednesday 7th June and on the Saturday (very early in the morning), I was heading to Portugal for a week. I had so much to unpack and then I had to pack my suitcase and get travel money and sort out documents and my car ready for the journey to the airport – I really just didn’t have a minute. Also, the Thursday was the General election so I voted in that and then wanted to spend most of my time keeping up-to-date with the election because politics are important to me. After all that, Saturday came and I headed off to Portugal and I really wanted to make the most of my time in Portugal and spend quality time with my boyfriend and just enjoy living in the moment and enjoying the experiences I was having and creating amazing memories.

That’s how crazy everything has been recently. I got back from Portugal early this morning and been to work today so I am looking forward to relaxing, writing more blog posts and catching up with everything. I have so many episodes of Love Island to catch up on – let me know if you are watching it and what couples you think are a match! I am excited to just get back to a little bit of normality. I had the best time away with Portugal and I cannot wait to share my experiences with you. If you head on over to my Instagram then you can see a sneak peak of my holiday and the activities I got up to.

Thank you so much for you continued support and I hope this has explained a few things and I hope to get back to regularly posting. Again, thank you so much and I will see you soon. Much love,

Lizzie X

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FAQ

Hey!

How have you all been? Today I am just going to make a short post answering some of the frequently asked questions which I receive. I thought it would just be easier to answer them all in one place but I do of course try and reply to everyone individually. Also, if you have any questions then feel free to leave a comment down below with your question!

  • How old are you? – 18
  • How do you afford to travel? – I have a part-time job and I use money from that which I have saved up to travel. I am at that age now, where there isn’t anything that I particular need so I would much rather save my money up and spend it on things where I will have lots of fun, great experiences and some fantastic memories to look back on.
  • What university do you attend? – I am currently studying at the University of Leicester.
  • What degree are you studying? – I am studying History BA.
  • How tall are you? – I am 5ft 5. So I am pretty average height haha!

They were just the few questions I wanted to answer! I really want to do some sort of Q&A so please leave me any questions below so I can answer them. I think that would be a really fun post to do! Also, let me know what sort of posts you would like to see to! I would love to hear all of your ideas.

Thank you all ever so much. Bye!

Lizzie X

She said she could.. so she did!

Hey guys!

How are you all doing? Christmas is just around the corner and that also means the end of the year is fast approaching. With that been said, I thought I would help give you a little motivation to make 2017 your year and to help ensure you take as many opportunities as possible, create amazing new memories and have some fantastic experiences.

The start of the New Year is always a chance to change and make things better for yourself. I won’t go into detail about my New Year’s resolutions in this post because I have another planned where they will be included so I will explain them in-depth in that post. I have however been inspired to write this post by a few of my friends. Recently a few of them have experienced relationship problems and gone through some terrible things and it has left them feeling really down and upset about things. They turned to me for advice and support and of course I was there for them because they’re my friends and I love them and to be honest I wish they would smile because I hate to see them hurting and so upset, it’s just not them. They are the nicest people. They’re so kind, loving and upbeat people so it’s been horrible seeing them go through what they have. None of them deserve it at all. Anyway, relationships and breakups affect people differently for different reasons, and I should know that because I have been through my fair share of bad situations with relationships which I think helped them because I genuinely understood them because I had been in their situation at one point or another.

“She said she could… so she did!”

This is my attitude going into the New Year and this is one I have tried to influence my friends with because I know what is like to be in their position. I know what is like to feel low and self-conscious and feel like you aren’t good enough for anyone or that you aren’t good enough to achieve your dreams.

The amount of power people can sometimes hold over you and make you feel a certain a way is horrible and it shouldn’t be like and it’s not like that but you must find the strength within yourself first.

I know how hard this. Whether it’s coming out of a relationship or being bullied or just having a hard time in life. In all situations, you feel everything is against you and nothing is going right.

When you come out of a relationship you are vulnerable. ‘Love is giving someone the power to destroy you but hoping they don’t.’ Your trust has just been broken and you have now lost someone you loved on depended on and obviously the damaged caused by relationships is all dependent on what went wrong. For me, relationships damaged me badly. My problem was I used to be naïve and trust people quite easy. I believed what they said and trust me, the first time when it all blew up I was devastated. I don’t remember hurting so much or feeling so angry, upset and confused about myself. It changed me so much. I was no longer the same trusting, loving little girl I use to be. I was a lot stronger and harder. I didn’t let people in anymore because I was afraid of being hurt again. I was afraid of someone treating that way and making me feel worthless and insecure that I was not prepared to put myself through it again. I didn’t want to be hurt and I certainly no longer believed in happy endings. Love definitely wasn’t the romances in films!

For a time, this stopped me from doing lots of things because I feared meeting people and forming friendships because I was scared of getting hurt and them walking away or becoming disinterested in me. I missed out on so many opportunities. Thankfully, after time I did begin to trust again and allow me self to open up to others. However, I by no means the same as I was. When I was younger it was my dream to get, married and have my dad walk me down the aisle but now I am quite cynical the whole idea of marriage and commitment quite honestly terrifies me but that’s not going to be some years yet anyway so need to worry about that.

The point to this is that time to does heel things and if you are confident within yourself then people don’t have the power to destroy you. I am content enough with myself that nobody else depicts my happiness or my opportunities or what can/ going to do with my life. Going through the experience as horrible as it was and no matter how hard it was and much I cried and hated myself has made me stronger today and I now realise it is me in control of my happiness and me who makes the decisions and nobody else otherwise I would forever be living someone else’s life. That’s why every day should be a great day and full opportunity and experiences. No matter what experiences you have, what pain you have felt, it has all happened for a reason and taught you something. I now know that I wake up every morning with a choice: I can choose to be happy or I let everyone else depict my happiness for me and I know which one makes sense.

This sense of self-worth and insecurity comes from all walks in life. I know the damage bullying causes to your self-esteem but that’s a whole new story. However, if you do want more advice and help on what I have just spoke about or about my bullying as a child and how I overcame that then feel free to ask and I will be more than happy to help because another thing I have learned is that speaking about your problems helps. It really does. Don’t ever feel like you’re the only one going through those problems or experiencing those issues because chances are other people are in the same position as you are and it’s okay to have a bad day and not be okay these things happen but what I am saying is no matter what has happened this year (good/bad) don’t let that predict the next year to come and the years after that. Look forward to the start of 2017 as a new chapter in your life. A place to start new ideas and new innovations. Grow and develop as person. Take risks and opportunities. Take chances and just live the life you want. Don’t let anyone else tell you can’t do something because quite often they say that because they are jealous or can’t do it themselves. If your New Year’s resolution is to lose weight don’t let anyone discourage you and stick at because that’s one of mine, so we can do it together. Find that support system and don’t be afraid to depend on them and let them help and support you. If you want to travel, take steps towards that. If you want to better your grades, find out what you can do. Whatever it is that you want to this forthcoming year make sure you do it and be happy! Don’t have regrets and live in the moment because you never know what is just around the corner. We are very blessed and lucky people and often through hard times, bad situations, or mixing with the wrong people we forget that an forget to appreciate our worth and purpose because we all belong here for a reason and we have something different to say and some different talents to offer. Be you and be happy with who you are!

That’s the message I have been trying to get through my friends whilst they are in their dark moments and I think it has really helped me. At the start of this Year after a very rough end to the previous year, I changed mindset to this way and although I have had a few bumps along the way, 2016 has been a fantastic year and has brought me many fantastic memories, experiences and people who I am forever thankful for and it’s all because I had courage to believe in my own ability and strength. Don’t get me wrong, every day I am still learning and developing in confidence and learning to love myself more and be happy but I now know what power I have over myself and my life and it’s nice to know the difference it has made. Therefore, I look forward to a great 2017 full of many great opportunities, experience and memories. A positive mindset, a little courage and belief goes a long way. If you don’t believe in yourself and love yourself then who will? You are special and you are good enough. Believe me, having a little confidence within yourself and knowing you are fine by yourself and you don’t need anybody else will open up whole new world or opportunities. For me it meant this year I could finally start thing blog like I had always to, I could go travelling and experience new cultures and places, it meant I could move away to uni and find my own independence and freedom and meet some of the most amazing people. Just please find the strength to have a little belief in yourself to say yes! You owe yourself the best life possible and you deserve to be happy and doing what you love.

I hope you all have great success with the forthcoming year and with your New Year’s resolution or just for making a great life for yourself. I am excited for 2017 and to start the new chapter in my life. I have no doubt that it will be great and I am sure will have a fantastic year full of new experiences, good and bad, with lots more memories and experiences. Life is a climb and just don’t forget to enjoy and make the most of every moment. I love you all lots!

Lizzie X

First Semester

Hey guys!

How are you all doing? I hope you are having a fantastic day/evening! Since I am having my hair cut and dyed tomorrow morning and then flying out to Edinburgh for a mini holiday I thought I would write this post now because I am going to be rather busy for the next few days coming up.

As I touched on briefly yesterday I have now finished my first semester at uni and I honestly couldn’t be happy with how things have gone. Of course, there were highs and lows but generally I have had a fantastic experience and enjoyed myself. For those of you who don’t know, I am studying History at the University of Leicester.

I was terrified for move in day, I am not even going to lie! I was so nervous. I was so worried that I wouldn’t get along with my flat mates (for this year I am staying in university accommodation) or I wouldn’t fit in etc. I had so many worries with me and what made it worse was that my family wasn’t coming with me, in fact my boyfriend and his family helped move to university, which to this day I cannot tell them how thankful I am that. I really appreciate it! So, thank you very much if you ever read this! So, on arrival I was so scared but I moved my stuff in and unpacked to make my room feel a little more like home, met some of flat mates and did the dreaded first grocery shop. The only thing was I was so upset and although I had a great first night with everyone going to the pub and chatting, it just wasn’t the same. Everyone else had their families with them helping them unpack, taking them shop and out for dinner. I just felt so lonely and that was the hardest part for me and I do remember crying that evening to myself in my room. However, that been said I wasn’t going to let that stop me.

The next couple of weeks was introduction stuff at the university (setting up doctors, getting your ID cards, introduction to courses etc.); going to events and meeting new people; and I know this is not everyone’s thing which is fine, but from time to time I do enjoy this and that was going out and making the most of freshers. I have had some great nights out whilst being at uni with some incredible people and have thoroughly enjoyed myself. Making friends was so much easier than I thought because don’t forget everyone else is in the same position as you so everyone wants to make friends just as much as you do too.

After some relaxing and becoming familiar with the surroundings and the people you were living with and who were on your course, university work began. It was challenging because it is step from your previous education, purely because it is so independent compared to anything you have done before this. My course was a mix of essays and presentations which was good for me because it forced me to become more confident and speak in front of people who I don’t know. To be honest I am much more confident than I was before I went to uni and it’s nice not be so timid all the time. So far, I am doing well and achieving well on my assignments so I hope that continues for the future.

There’s so much I could tell you but I don’t want to ramble on but if you do have any questions or want more posts about uni life then please do let me know and I will do them for you, no problem. I have been working at the weekends too (Friday, Saturday and Sunday) which helps financially. I have been so much more tired since I have gone to uni and I don’t even know why ahah! I am self-catered for those who are wondering and I have enjoyed cooking for myself. Sometimes it’s annoying because occasionally you’re tired and cannot be bothered to cook but majority of the time it is great because you eat what you want, whenever you want. I do have an en suite room as well for any of you who are curious.

I guess most of all what I have enjoyed most about being at university is the freedom and independence you get. Okay, not everything has gone well for me whilst I have been there and there have been times when I have cried or gotten upset or been stressed with work and assignments but I have enjoyed it and really wouldn’t change my experience. I have already met some amazing people who I will be friends with for life and we are so close, it’s like we have always known each other. I love just being my own person and doing the things that I like and enjoy which makes me happy. Before I never had this freedom and it’s so refreshing to design a life which makes me happy and which I love. I love going to the gym an eating healthy, seeing my friends and going out for lunch with them, or seeing my boyfriend and catching up. Things really can be great when you make the most of what you are given and I am so thankful for all the opportunities university has already given me.

I think I will leave it there for today but as I have said if you want blog post about anything specific or got any questions feel free to ask and I will help best I can. If you want to see some photos of my uni experience head over to my Instagram @thiz_is_lizzie_xx because I have been using it a tonne recently to save memories of the great times I am having. Also, let me know if you want posts about me having my hair cut and dyed tomorrow and also about my travels to Edinburgh and I will see you when really soon (probably when I get back!)

Love you all so much! Bye guys!

Lizzie X

Sorry….

Hey everyone!

I know it’s been awhile again since I lasted posted a blog post and I really do want to apologise for the inconsistency here on my blog. I have just had so much going on recently with settling into university life and sorting out my course and any other issues I have had that I really have not had a moment to sit down and just write. I am really sorry everyone. I was going to at the weekend but then I was working and I have literally been so exhausted that all I have wanted to do is sleep.

I am genuinely going to try so hard and get into a routine of posting now I have been given my timetable and try and work out a schedule of when to post. But for now just bare with me because everything is new and there are lots of things I am in the process of sorting out and working out plans for but I will get there soon. I promise too that the mini univeristy series is coming and they will be my next couple of blog posts. If you do have any specific questions then feel free to leave them in the comments and I will answer them best I can!

But for now, I am just in the process of settling into a new routine and lifestyle and figuring out everything. I will see you really soon with a new post and hopefully the first in my university series.I love you all guys! See you really soon and thank you so much for your patience with me and all of your support!

Lizzie X

Life update

Hey!

How are you doing? Today I have a bit of different post and I just wanted a chat with you all.

Lots has been going on in my life recently and I think it is very easy for people just to see the positive side and not thinking you have things going on because you continue with day to day life as normal and always appear happy. For me, I am a very private person and so I find it hard to talk about things when they aren’t going so well. I am a very guarded person and much rather put on a happy front than let people know.

No one really understands what anyone is going through and sometimes I really do feel people judge others by what they see and not actually knowing what they are going through. People like to tell me I have nothing moan about and my life is brilliant and if you know me then I can definitely see why people would say that. It’s just that I am a quiet person and I don’t like to display what’s happening and being sad. Part of the way I chose to deal with things is to put on a front, distract myself and be happy and have a laugh otherwise I will definitely overthink everything and that just doesn’t help the situation.

This summer has definitely been full of changes for me and I don’t really know how to feel about a lot of them. A lot of stuff has built up and I just don’t know what to feel and I guess sort of confused about things. Very soon, in September, I head off to university and moving away and that is super scary for me. I’ve not even thought about buying anything for my room or what to take. This year I finally finished compulsory education and it seems so weird knowing that I won’t be going back to the place where I have just spent he last 7 years of my life. I have to make this big life changing step without my family and their support, so I am very thankful that my friends and boyfriend are with me and supporting me through it.

I started my blog this summer and that has definitely been one of the best decisions I have made. It has just been so nice to be able to write an express myself freely and have people read, like and comment such lovely things. I have always been creative and passionate and I do really enjoy blogging daily and chatting to you all about anything and everything. I have also opened my own clothing collection and that was super exciting and I love designing new items which I am inspired by. I started my YouTube channel which is something I wanted to do for so long but I am not sure about it anymore. I want to continue because I enjoy making content and filming and editing… it’s really fun and I love taking photographs but I just have been thinking about changing the idea behind it and not restricting myself to just one type of video. I think I want to create a good mixture. I really want to start vlogging. Maybe not to upload to my channel everyday because I don’t know how many of you would be interested in my daily life but for a diary for me and memories especially since I have some big times coming up soon like moving to uni, a little holiday with my friends, a trip to London with my boyfriend. I think I just want to make vlogs to keep as a memory for myself.

Speaking of holidays I am so excited to be going away soon and having some breaks away from everything and taking my mind off everything. I am really excited for both of them and they are both so soon. I think it will be nice to get away from the daily struggles I am facing and just enjoy myself.

I don’t know how I really feel about everything. It’s just so much happening a lot more personal stuff which I don’t feel comfortable explaining. It’s just sometimes a lot to deal with and hard to keep putting on a front and pretending like everything is okay when it’s really not.

I am really just taking things day by day and seeing what it brings. Some days I manage to have really good days and a good laugh ad a good times other days just don’t go so well and today is one of those days. I know eventually everything will turn out okay. It may not be tomorrow, next week, next month or even next year but eventually everything will work out so I am just staying positive and just know that I am lucky to be surrounded by lovely friends and a lovely boyfriend and these things happen in life and it’s all about learning and growing from the experiences.

Sorry for the super long post where I have just rambled. I just felt like I needed to get a few things off my chest and I find sometimes I do find I feel better after that. Thank you so much for reading and I will see you soon!

Lizzie X