Going Through The Emotions…

Hello everyone!

It appears to be the longest time since I have sat down and have written a blog post and that makes me so sad but in all honesty, I have just been so busy with life and as the title says going through all the emotions. If you read my blog quite regularly you will notice over the past couple of months I have been quite absent and haven’t been posting as frequently as what I usually do.  Truthfully, I just haven’t written much on here because I am definitely one of those people who won’t rush content and just put something up because I need to. No. I will only ever upload something if I feel 100% happy and proud of what I have done and these past couple of months I have been going through a really hard time and I just haven’t felt inspired to write or felt the need. I just wanted to keep things to myself and not put up content that I wasn’t proud of or happy with.

I know this may not appear to be the case because I have been on holiday so much these past couple of months and if you follow me on my Twitter or Instagram all you will have been seeing is my holiday photos and a rather happy me. However, that doesn’t mean I don’t have things going on behind closed doors. I post the things I do on my Instagram and Twitter because it makes me feel happy and it makes me feel better. Also, just because I only share the happy and positive moments in my life, doesn’t make me fake it just means I want to keep some privacy against some of the personal things that are going on in my life. Therefore, I don’t want to be positing about them and thus I won’t be going into detail about them on here. I just wanted to make this post as sort of an update post.

I know everyone goes through tough times and everyone is fighting their own battles that none of us are aware of so I know it is so important to always just be kind and respectful to everyone. You never know what they are going through. Life isn’t easy and even though I have taken a break from blogging I know it was the right decision and has definitely help keep some space and clear my mind and thoughts. It has been so important for me to have just switched off from everything and distance myself from everyone so I could figure out for myself what I really wanted without getting influenced by others.

Having hit the lowest point of the last couple of the months the other day, I have finally decided that it is time to move on from all this and help myself and get myself back to where I was. It isn’t always easy when you feel like the world is against you and if any of you have bad luck, like I do, when something goes wrong for me, everything goes wrong all at the same time! I know that everything happens for a reason and what will be will be.  Life challenges you to make you stronger and to give your experience and lessons which will ultimately be very important. I know that even in these difficult times I am very lucky and everything will work out okay in the end, it just takes time. Meanwhile I just need to look after myself and put myself first and love who I am and focus on doing what makes me happy and what I love. Therefore, I hope you return to blogging as usual and to just be filling my life with lots of love and laughter and to make those dark days just a little brighter.

For any of you who have been feeling like me and have been going through some difficult times I just want you to know you are not alone, everything happens for a reason and everything will be okay in the end. You just to have to believe and give the situation time and be patient with yourself and also give yourself time to recover and become stronger.

So, on a happier note, I have decided to just take control of everything and try and move forward the best I can.  It won’t be easy and it will take time but I do want to return to blogging so I hope you can just be patient with me a little longer while I get back into this and I can’t wait to be making content again. I have missed talking and chatting with you all. Also, if you have any suggestions for posts you would like to see then please them below in the comments because I am always looking for new and interesting ideas.

Much love as always,

Lizzie X

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Life update

Hey!

How are you doing? Today I have a bit of different post and I just wanted a chat with you all.

Lots has been going on in my life recently and I think it is very easy for people just to see the positive side and not thinking you have things going on because you continue with day to day life as normal and always appear happy. For me, I am a very private person and so I find it hard to talk about things when they aren’t going so well. I am a very guarded person and much rather put on a happy front than let people know.

No one really understands what anyone is going through and sometimes I really do feel people judge others by what they see and not actually knowing what they are going through. People like to tell me I have nothing moan about and my life is brilliant and if you know me then I can definitely see why people would say that. It’s just that I am a quiet person and I don’t like to display what’s happening and being sad. Part of the way I chose to deal with things is to put on a front, distract myself and be happy and have a laugh otherwise I will definitely overthink everything and that just doesn’t help the situation.

This summer has definitely been full of changes for me and I don’t really know how to feel about a lot of them. A lot of stuff has built up and I just don’t know what to feel and I guess sort of confused about things. Very soon, in September, I head off to university and moving away and that is super scary for me. I’ve not even thought about buying anything for my room or what to take. This year I finally finished compulsory education and it seems so weird knowing that I won’t be going back to the place where I have just spent he last 7 years of my life. I have to make this big life changing step without my family and their support, so I am very thankful that my friends and boyfriend are with me and supporting me through it.

I started my blog this summer and that has definitely been one of the best decisions I have made. It has just been so nice to be able to write an express myself freely and have people read, like and comment such lovely things. I have always been creative and passionate and I do really enjoy blogging daily and chatting to you all about anything and everything. I have also opened my own clothing collection and that was super exciting and I love designing new items which I am inspired by. I started my YouTube channel which is something I wanted to do for so long but I am not sure about it anymore. I want to continue because I enjoy making content and filming and editing… it’s really fun and I love taking photographs but I just have been thinking about changing the idea behind it and not restricting myself to just one type of video. I think I want to create a good mixture. I really want to start vlogging. Maybe not to upload to my channel everyday because I don’t know how many of you would be interested in my daily life but for a diary for me and memories especially since I have some big times coming up soon like moving to uni, a little holiday with my friends, a trip to London with my boyfriend. I think I just want to make vlogs to keep as a memory for myself.

Speaking of holidays I am so excited to be going away soon and having some breaks away from everything and taking my mind off everything. I am really excited for both of them and they are both so soon. I think it will be nice to get away from the daily struggles I am facing and just enjoy myself.

I don’t know how I really feel about everything. It’s just so much happening a lot more personal stuff which I don’t feel comfortable explaining. It’s just sometimes a lot to deal with and hard to keep putting on a front and pretending like everything is okay when it’s really not.

I am really just taking things day by day and seeing what it brings. Some days I manage to have really good days and a good laugh ad a good times other days just don’t go so well and today is one of those days. I know eventually everything will turn out okay. It may not be tomorrow, next week, next month or even next year but eventually everything will work out so I am just staying positive and just know that I am lucky to be surrounded by lovely friends and a lovely boyfriend and these things happen in life and it’s all about learning and growing from the experiences.

Sorry for the super long post where I have just rambled. I just felt like I needed to get a few things off my chest and I find sometimes I do find I feel better after that. Thank you so much for reading and I will see you soon!

Lizzie X

Not everyday is a good day

Now I know that I have already posted today but writing always seems to make me feel better. Although I am not one to open up and share everything in my personal life, so much has happened recently I just feel I need to get my emotions out there.

This year particularly has been incredibly hard for me. I have experienced the death of my grandma, tried to cope with A-levels, university decisions of which has caused so much drama, like one could not imagine,  and tried to manage relationships.

I would like to say I probably did the best I could and get through the situations and to a certain degree that was true, but recently it has all got too much and I pushed away the people I needed.

I’m not here to moan and make life out to be horrific because I know there are so many more people with bigger problems than I have, but a problem is a problem and still means something to the person going through the situation.

I’ll be the first to say what I am going through isn’t easy and I will also admit I don’t think recently I have handled it particularly well. I’m only human though. I’m not perfect and I make a lot of mistakes all the time. I just wish now I would have controlled and handled things a lot differently. It’s so hard in the heat of the moment to think about what’s best.I was so torn, confused and hurt by what people were saying I didn’t know what to do or say. Instead I let it build up, and my first piece of advice would be to not bottle things up.

Speaking my emotions though is just something I’m not particularly good at. I can’t open up easily. I am very much guarded and have my guard up that I find it hard, especially when everyone is against you and especially when it’s the people who are supposed to love and support you no matter what and they aren’t, I just couldn’t do it again. I had tried so many times and failed, it wasn’t getting through to them. I began to get so frustrated with myself because I didn’t want to care but of course I was going to. I became an increasingly difficult person to be around. I would just take everything out of proportion and push people away.

I certainly didn’t like what all the hurt, anger and resentment was doing to me and the destructiveness it was causing within my relationships. I am a strong person usually but this year has been a real test even more so recently and I really despise myself for who I have been and how affected I have been.

I’m my biggest critic and always will be. I’m always so hard on myself. I know I only have myself to blame for not handling what’s happening properly, but it’s scary and it hurts. I know I am sorry and I am going to work so hard everyday to get out of these issues without affecting other people. I’m not going to let people tell me what to do anymore or control the situation or my life, because at end of day I need to do what’s best for me and will make me happy with or without their support.

Everyday I wake up with a smile and a new beginning, chance and opportunity to grow as a person and achieve and also learn from mistakes. I’m hopeful tomorrow will be a much better day and the start of a new game plan to make changes for the better.

I hope I haven’t rambled too much and sounded too moody, and I promise I will be back tomorrow with my usual posts. I do feel a lot better after writing this!

Lastly I wanted to say a big thank you to my boyfriend for his continued support and love no matter what, my friends for always having my back and all of you who read my blog and like and comment on my posts. You’re so supportive everyday and your comments are incredible and so lovely and genuine and never fail to make me smile. I love you all and thank you so so so much!! I’m forever grateful.

Lizzie X

Road to Success

Hi everyone!

I hope you are all doing well and are having a good day/evening! The article today is a little different and all about self-respect, something of which I believe to be of paramount importance. I’ve not always had the level of respect for myself that I should have had and some points in my life after hitting serious lows I found it hard to have any confidence and believe in myself. Life is hard and although I have only lived a small fragment of my life and most certainly still have some of the most important moments in my life to come I want to make people aware of the importance of respecting yourself and believing in your own abilities early on.

Let me tell you about something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows; it’s a very mean and nasty place. And I don’t care how tough you are; it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it…” I am positive you have all heard this very famous quote before. Life will throw challenges at you, it will knock you down, you will have failures and disappointments but so does everyone. It’s about how you get back up from those moments and how you continue to believe in yourself and what you wish to achieve.

Pain is temporary and eventually it will subside. Quitting however will last a life time. People will always want to try to tell you that you aren’t good enough because they are not and they cannot do what you can. You cannot surround yourself with this negativity because then you will lose all respect you had for yourself and your dreams. You must surround yourself with greatness. People who can make you grow, encourage you and challenge you.

You can’t always win in life but you can always believe that something else can happen. You have to believe in yourself that much you have to take the hits and get knocked down. You will fall but you have to get back up and make things better. Create those opportunities and believe you can make a change!

If you don’t love, respect and believe in yourself then who will? If you cannot see your potential and self-worth, how can anyone else? Life is hard but respect yourself and don’t settle for any less than you deserve because you are worthy and you are capable!

Thanks so much guys for reading. Don’t stop believing in yourself. It will take time but eventually you will get where you want to get to and all the hard work will have paid off and it will be the best feeling in the world. See you soon!

Lizzie X

Milestone 1!

Hi guys,

I know I already posted today but I really needed to write a post to state my appreciation for all of you who follow my blog; read my blog and for those who comment on and like my posts.

I have just hit my first milestone today and now have more than 50 of you following my blog and for me that’s crazy! I really do want to thank you all for the support you give, your comments and likes always cheer me and make me smile when I am having a bad day or a down moment. It’s lovely to know I have support from all of you!

I just hope this continues to grow and I look forward to the future and the future of this blog and writing posts for you everyday to read and enjoy.

Hitting my first milestone was a little reminder to me of how far I have come. I haven’t always found things easy and not always had confidence.I put off writing blogs posts for a while. With this in my mind I decided to write an article on my trending stories about self-respect, confidence and never giving up because that’s really what has got me here. I’ll link this article below if you want to have a little read!

Again thank you so much for all your amazing support and I am super happy and proud of this moment and can’t wait to see what the future holds for my blog. Until tomorrow guys! Bye!! Love you all!

Lizzie X

https://mytrendingstories.com/article/the-road-to-success/

Hard times

Hey guys! I’m back with another blog post. I haven’t posted in a while because I have been down and had a series of bad days but I am back and hopefully back with some ideas to get you out of the pessimistic mindset you tend to be in whilst things aren’t going your way.

I really despise bad days. They just make me feel so low. I mean that seems obvious. I am pretty sure no one is overjoyed to have a bad day but I hate feeling sad and down. I always almost feel a lot of pressure from people to be happy and always smile. For me, at my age, it’s almost like you are judged for been sad, especially if your sadness is prolonged. After a rough couple of months, I know how that feels. When you experience prolonged sadness people always assume you are depressed but most of the time it really is not to that extent. Some days, these past months have been some of the best but the majority of them have been rough and hard to get through and in turn I have been sad and then I would always feel bad about that. So the first thing I want to say is that it is okay to be sad and it is definitely okay to be down and cry. Crying is a sign of strength to many, it shows that you can express your emotions (that is something I am definitely not the best at). I would always feel weak and vulnerable for crying but now I know it is better to cry and let it all out than keep it all bottled up inside. Don’t feel like it is not okay to be sad because it is.

I know I have a good life. I know I am blessed. I’m grateful for things I have, really, but right now in this moment in time… I’m sad..and that’s okay!

I feel like the first stage of moving of from your sadness  is to accept that it you are sad and that it is normal. After all we are all human! We all have bad days and all have things happen to us which makes us feel down. That is completely normal and I feel once we accept that, then we can work on solving it and becoming happy again. Whether its having a day with the girls or guys, watching a movie or having a good cry, it is important to do whatever makes you feel better about being sad. Being sad is a normal emotion and you shouldn’t feel like it is wrong to feel that way. It is okay! Accepting that you are down is the first place to start when making things better for yourself.

When you’re down I almost believe it is necessary and important to take time to reflect.That doesn’t mean overthink and draw up negative conclusions. It means dedicate time to yourself and work out where things went wrong and how to solve them so you can act positively.

My top 5 things to do when I am down and want some time to myself:

  1. Take a hot bath or shower
  2. Warm drink
  3. Watch a movie
  4. Listen to music
  5. Read a book

That’s just a few! There are many ways to cheer yourself up and be positive even when things look dull. Talk to a friend, bake or even write in journal. All these things either help distract you from the problem or allow you take to time out for yourself and get away from the problems and think about your next steps.

Having a bad day is inevitable every once in while but it doesn’t have to stay that way and once you have chosen to move on and be happy there are plenty of ways to boost your spirit.

I hope this has given you some ideas on what to do when you are feeling a bit down and I will see you in the next one!

Bye X