Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes…

Hello!

I hope you are doing great and  having a lovely week so far! I like to think of my blog as a place on the internet where I can freely express myself and my feelings/thoughts and opinions or anything that is possibly troubling. I always feel better once I have spoken about my problems but I find it incredibly difficult opening up to people, especially talking to me people face-to-face. I find it so much easier to convey my emotions when writing or even drawing. I find it so much easier to express myself and what I mean. I mean when I am speaking to someone I usually spend half the time correcting what I have just said because what I have just said didn’t really say what I felt at all. Am I the only one who does this? Anyway, I just wanted to take this time to write about my feelings and where I currently am.

Summer is coming to a close now and it really has been amazing and probably my best summer so far. It is definitely one I shall never forget. I think this is the first year in ages I have been at home for summer and not gone on vacation to Florida so I definitely wanted to make the most of it with my friends before we all go our separate ways to university. I really feel like we have and I had a great time with everyone and all the parties and going out and although it is not over quite yet for me and I have a couple of weeks left (which I ams for sure going to make count) my mind has now become consumed with worries over university. I really cannot believe how soon it is until I move away and leave the comfort of my home and the surroundings that have been so familiar for the past 18 years of my life. I have never known anything else other than where I have lived and it’s scary to think that in two weeks I leave for somewhere completely new.

I am really stressed about moving away to uni. For me it’s the same for the majority of people when they move away. I don’t have the support and help from people I most need it from and although now after 9 long months I am coming to terms with that I just find it so hard when I know everybody else’s parents are excited and happy for their child to be going off to further education. Mine couldn’t be further from that! But I am not going to dwell on this and go into detail , it just often gets to me and I wish I had someone who proud of me and happy for me, however, I guess the fact that I made it to uni and that I am doing want I want to do is good enough and so I should be happy with me. I think maybe me being proud of myself is the best thing anyway.

In terms of buying stuff for my room, I have barely started. I have like a few towels and rug. That’s not going to particularly get me far haha! Although I am going shopping tomorrow for some more things and I know what I need to get it’s just stressful having to buy it all yourself and sort it all out. Most people I know have already got all their things and have packed their room up ready to move and yet I haven’t even thought about that! I am sure I am just stressing for no reason and everything will work out fine and I have no doubts I will feel better when I have more stuff ready and have started packing. I have even thought about how I am going to move all my stuff to uni.Of course my family aren’t helping me so I am going solo and I do drive so I was going to take the car but then I don’t think my parents will let me and plus I don’t fancy the motorway but I have no clue otherwise how I am meant to move everything! Just another thing to add to my list of worries ay!

I know I am just stressing by the forthcoming changes because they are really soon and massive and in two weeks time I will be fine and happily settled but for now I am just crazy stressed. Stressed about moving, fitting in and making friends, liking my course and picking my modules which I haven’t chosen yet either and making a really positive, successful start to university life. I know this all seems stupid to worry over and I am sure everything will turn out but it just dwindles away in the back of my mind all the time.

I will definitely keep you updated on everything and moving away. There will be plenty of hauls of things I purchase for my room and also I was thinking of doing a tour of my room and a moving vlog. Let me know if you would like see any of those.

Thank you so much for listening to the rambling of my mind. I feel better already now I have spoken about it and like I say I am sure in two weeks I will wonder what the heck I was worried about but I am sure those of you who have moved to university will probably understand the feeling. I can’t wait in some aspects to move away and start a fresh and be really independent. I am really excited at the same time but currently I just think my nerves are over taking the excitement.

Thank you so very much for all your support, likes and comments. I appreciate them and it’s nice to know I have a little place where I can freely express my feelings and receive such supportive comments and feedback. I am very appreciative and I shall see you all very soon! BYE!

Lizzie X