Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes…

Hello!

I hope you are doing great and Β having a lovely week so far! I like to think of my blog as a place on the internet where I can freely express myself and my feelings/thoughts and opinions or anything that is possibly troubling. I always feel better once I have spoken about my problems but I find it incredibly difficult opening up to people, especially talking to me people face-to-face. I find it so much easier to convey my emotions when writing or even drawing. I find it so much easier to express myself and what I mean. I mean when I am speaking to someone I usually spend half the time correcting what I have just said because what I have just said didn’t really say what I felt at all. Am I the only one who does this? Anyway, I just wanted to take this time to write about my feelings and where I currently am.

Summer is coming to a close now and it really has been amazing and probably my best summer so far. It is definitely one I shall never forget. I think this is the first year in ages I have been at home for summer and not gone on vacation to Florida so I definitely wanted to make the most of it with my friends before we all go our separate ways to university. I really feel like we have and I had a great time with everyone and all the parties and going out and although it is not over quite yet for me and I have a couple of weeks left (which I ams for sure going to make count) my mind has now become consumed with worries over university. I really cannot believe how soon it is until I move away and leave the comfort of my home and the surroundings that have been so familiar for the past 18 years of my life. I have never known anything else other than where I have lived and it’s scary to think that in two weeks I leave for somewhere completely new.

I am really stressed about moving away to uni. For me it’s the same for the majority of people when they move away. I don’t have the support and help from people I most need it from and although now after 9 long months I am coming to terms with that I just find it so hard when I know everybody else’s parents are excited and happy for their child to be going off to further education. Mine couldn’t be further from that! But I am not going to dwell on this and go into detail , it just often gets to me and I wish I had someone who proud of me and happy for me, however, I guess the fact that I made it to uni and that I am doing want I want to do is good enough and so I should be happy with me. I think maybe me being proud of myself is the best thing anyway.

In terms of buying stuff for my room, I have barely started. I have like a few towels and rug. That’s not going to particularly get me far haha! Although I am going shopping tomorrow for some more things and I know what I need to get it’s just stressful having to buy it all yourself and sort it all out. Most people I know have already got all their things and have packed their room up ready to move and yet I haven’t even thought about that! I am sure I am just stressing for no reason and everything will work out fine and I have no doubts I will feel better when I have more stuff ready and have started packing. I have even thought about how I am going to move all my stuff to uni.Of course my family aren’t helping me so I am going solo and I do drive so I was going to take the car but then I don’t think my parents will let me and plus I don’t fancy the motorway but I have no clue otherwise how I am meant to move everything! Just another thing to add to my list of worries ay!

I know I am just stressing by the forthcoming changes because they are really soon and massive and in two weeks time I will be fine and happily settled but for now I am just crazy stressed. Stressed about moving, fitting in and making friends, liking my course and picking my modules which I haven’t chosen yet either and making a really positive, successful start to university life. I know this all seems stupid to worry over and I am sure everything will turn out but it just dwindles away in the back of my mind all the time.

I will definitely keep you updated on everything and moving away. There will be plenty of hauls of things I purchase for my room and also I was thinking of doing a tour of my room and a moving vlog. Let me know if you would like see any of those.

Thank you so much for listening to the rambling of my mind. I feel better already now I have spoken about it and like I say I am sure in two weeks I will wonder what the heck I was worried about but I am sure those of you who have moved to university will probably understand the feeling. I can’t wait in some aspects to move away and start a fresh and be really independent. I am really excited at the same time but currently I just think my nerves are over taking the excitement.

Thank you so very much for all your support, likes and comments. I appreciate them and it’s nice to know I have a little place where I can freely express my feelings and receive such supportive comments and feedback. I am very appreciative and I shall see you all very soon! BYE!

Lizzie X

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40 thoughts on “Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes…

    1. I am going to uni of Leicester and yeah I am glad I have been brave and took the step to go it was really hard. How come you wish you had done? Also what did you study and where?x

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      1. Because I just went to the uni in my county and actually I hate the area I live in and I want to see the country more so yeah I wish I’d studied away or at least live in my uni city! Im a second year at Lincoln studying psychology x

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        1. Oh right fair enough and yes I hate my area too so I will be glad to get away and oo that’s sounds good. How has it been so far?x

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            1. Yeah I hoped you would say that and I worry about it because it’s so soon haha and yeah I am looking forward that and I do want to have a great experience too as well as a degree but then again I have had a hard and strange life so it’s sort of a fresh start for me I guess x

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            2. Well it’ll certainly give you a fresh start and the chance to really make some great friends! Like as I travelled in I was really worried I wouldn’t have the chance to make friends but I’ve made some thankfully!x

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            3. That’s good then because I am super worried about making friends and not being lonely haha z

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            1. Wow. Amazed by your choice, it’s a good one! I am going for mechanical engineering!
              Well Lizzie, I have a question, about your family. Can I ask?

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            2. They just don’t support my decision and don’t want me to go. It’s a long and complicated story. That’s why blog posts haven’t been as frequent because I have been dealing with other stuff so sorry for that

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            3. Come on. No need to be sorry. Well, I hope things will be better for you. Maybe your family will come to terms with what you want. We want so much from our families. And we need them now more than ever I think. And it just shows how strong girl you are. Respect!

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            4. Thank you and yeah I guess so They don’t have much to do with me anymore and yeah the fact this was so life changing and they couldn’t respect and support my decision really hurt but it’s my life and I have to do what I wanna do. I was thinking of beginning to vlog now I am going uni but I am not sure and thank you. It’s hard but I have gotten use to it now

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            5. When we endure hardship, we come out better than ever. That’s what my religion teaches me and thats my belief. Hope to see you as a leading archaeologist one day πŸ™‚

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            6. Yeah I will be fine in the end they will see and that’s a good belief to have! And haha aw thank you πŸ™‚

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  1. I felt the same way when I started out last year in uni. But don’t worry, you’ll get used to it and things will soon be better! Wish you all the luck and looking forward to the vlog and hauls!

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  2. You know how a lot of people say that change is good? Well they say it because it’s true. The only problem is that we often stress about it. To me personally, music helps a lot, and Bowie is definitely my ultimate happy place. And by your title, I assume you like him too, so give him a try at de-stressing you πŸ™‚ xo

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    1. Yes I believe change is good I am just worrying about it at the moment haha like you said and yes I do like Bowie ahaa, glad you got my title haha and he’s playing at the minute xx

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  3. You should be so so proud of yourself, I just started college yesterday and I know exactly how you feel, it’s so stressful and worrying! But you seem like such a lovely person I’m sure in a few weeks time you’ll be flying it! Keep us updated on how you are and remember that everything will work out perfectly x

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    1. Aw thank you! What you studying at college? I know you will be fine at college!! And aw thank you so much, I really appreciate it. I sure will keep you updated and yeah I am sure everything will be okay in a few weeks time!! Thanks lovely xx

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